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Sep. 28th, 2009 @ 07:06 pm Marching Band Update
Current Mood: anxious
First of all, I want to thank everybody who commented and helped me out with my Marching Band issue. Each of you had something unique to add that really helped me with my decision.

I decided to quit band. I finished out this last show, since I didn't want there to be a hole in the formation because of me, and it was only one more week. And although I was sad when I was done, I have to say that I know it was the right decision. My back is still killing me, and the game was on Saturday. And I have loads of work that need to get finished for this week's classes- if I would have had to be at band rehearsal every day, I doubt I could have completed everything. I don't even know if I can do it without band, lol.

Again, thanks to all who helped me out. You guys rule! :D
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Sep. 16th, 2009 @ 08:32 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: frustrated
I know I haven't updated in, well, forever- some of you probably don't even remember who this is. But I have nowhere else to turn, so please help me.

I am in Marching Band right now. I loved it last year. I was dragged into doing it again this year, but with a heavier instrument (baritone). It has been KILLING my back and shoulders. Up until now, I have *sorta* enjoyed band this season. But today I got in an argument with my section leader, and it has led to one thought after another of "should I quit?"

I used to absolutely love marching band. Now I'm not entirely sure. It takes up 7 hours out of my already insane week- and that's when there's no game. When there's a game, my whole Saturday is devoted to band. I work two jobs and am a full-time graduate student attempting to write a thesis. My chiropractor says that each band rehearsal is slowly contributing to something that may possibly screw me up for life. My back and shoulders constantly ache, but not in that good "ooo I just worked out" kind of way. And, as of today's rehearsal, I no longer get along with my section leader. The constant high-school drama that floats throughout the band like the plague is just something I DO NOT NEED to deal with as a graduate student.

What should I do? I know there's no amount of advice that can really help all that much, but should I drop something that I love (or used to love)? Do I let the whole band, and my wonderful band director, down? Or should I think of me and my future? 

Will I regret it?

Will any of this even matter in a few months when the season will be over?

Help Me, Please.
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Apr. 6th, 2009 @ 02:16 pm My life!
Current Mood: chipper
Holy cow. It's been about 6 months since I've updated this thing! Talk about having no time whatsoever! Here is a brief update on my life:

~I am loving my graduate program and am almost done with my first year. I will graduate in May of 2010.
~I am working at Burger King and the Woodland Park front desk, both of which will be done soon when I go home for summer
~I have a Human Resources internship with Heartland Food Corp. in Downers Grove this summer
~I have had a "new" boyfriend since September, who is the most wonderful guy alive (and I mean it this time!)
~I am kind of looking forward to summer and kind of not (I will miss being up here, but am excited for my internship and being around family)
~I am so stressed out with papers and presentations right now that I could scream, and just wish I had more time to work on them

Well, there it is, my life for the past 6 months summed up for ya :) Hopefully I'll get in the habit of updating more often- I come here all the time to read about everybody else, so I guess it would only be fair to let you do the same ;) Happy Monday to everyone! (Yeah right...)
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Oct. 4th, 2008 @ 11:44 pm Sex on the street?!
Current Mood: crazy

http://video.stangtv.com/video_detail.php?mId=7201

Go here if you want to see my brother drag racing... he did a MONSTER WHEELIE!! Scroll over to 2 min 15 sec if you wanna see him :)
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Sep. 11th, 2008 @ 01:48 am Secret meme, as promised!

1. [info]bexhet 
2. [info]thepeople27 
3. Nobody, really.
4. [info]auntspiker 
5. [info]oreowhore (in the best way possible of course! :D)\
6. [info]skippai 
7. [info]_kaitlin 
8. [info]k_9hat 
9. [info]baritonesrock 
10. [info]saxomofo 
11. [info]squishychicka15 
12. [info]una_sola 
13. [info]oreowhore (she better be one some day!!)
14. [info]skippai 
15. [info]bexhet 
16. [info]dragonfly_fox 
17. [info]barrin 
18. [info]bml309 
19. [info]aerodash84 
20. [info]nevermind1986 
21 and 22. I don't know what S and M types are and it's too late for me to care!
23. [info]amandamanet (yay band!)
24. [info]barrin 
25. [info]xxmusiclover 
26. I'm gonna have to go with [info]bexhet on this one ;)
27. [info]baritonesrock 
28. [info]skippai 
29. [info]oreowhore YAY call me baby
30. I start at burger king tomorrow, thanks to [info]kitty_pastry !! :)
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Sep. 9th, 2008 @ 05:33 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: relieved
1 year, 4 months, 19 days. That is how long I was with Nick. It was just time to move on. So I did. Maybe I'll elaborate later, but I'm still kind of numb.
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Sep. 1st, 2008 @ 04:18 am (no subject)
Current Mood: content
Tonight is one of the best nights I've had in a while. Nick, Chris, Scott, Sandra and I went out to the Woodland bonfire out near the Casino on the lake and had a complete blast, digging holes and toasting marshmallows (and telling shitty jokes!). Then, we met up with Mark and Jaclyn, left Scott behind and brought Mitch, and we all drove out to the Paulding Light. It was sweet as usual... we saw the light a few times, but the most fun was the drunk guys that were there. It was just a wonderful time. I am kinda still creeped out because we kept seeing weird things on the way back... I saw a car that looked to be broke down in the grass and Sandra saw a little girl but didn't see the car... and we pondered turning around to see if the girl needed help, but I was convinced Sandra was seeing things... and I was creeped out, lol. But it was a great time and now I'm exhausted, but it was well worth it!

Oh, and thanks to Lysa, I have an interview at BK tomorrow. *Crosses fingers* I need monies!!
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Aug. 28th, 2008 @ 10:02 am (no subject)
Current Mood: blah
 Since I don't know where else to turn, I will post my problem here. Does anyone have any clue who in Marquette is hiring? I have gotten suggestions from some of you, so thank you for those. However, I have applied to probably 20 places in the past 3 days and even more than that over the summer- and I haven't heard from anyone. Granted, the ones from earlier this week could still call, but I'm just wondering if any of you have seen "hiring" signs or know somebody personally who is hiring. Part-time or full, days or overnights (just not evenings). Thanks in advance!
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Aug. 22nd, 2008 @ 05:53 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: cranky
 Well, I'm back in Marquette. This whole week, I've been at marching band camp- all day, every day, from 8:30am to 9pm (with lunch and dinner breaks, of course). I feel like I'm going to die... but I've heard this feeling will pass. Yeah... otherwise not much is going on, I never update because my life never really changes much. So- 2 more days until band camp is over and grad classes start. I still don't know if I've made the right decision about coming back here, but as mom and everyone else said, I wouldn't know unless I tried it.

So here I am.
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Jul. 17th, 2008 @ 01:21 am And the verdict is...
Current Mood: cold
I have decided that I will be returning to NMU for at least next semester. I have the money, and I just can't let go of that place yet.

In other happy news, I have strep throat! Yayyyy... I just can't cut a break, ever. lol. 
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Jul. 8th, 2008 @ 12:22 am Help?
Current Mood: anxious
So, the time is approaching for me to go back to Marquette to pick up my stuff from my apartment. Because I was totally sure that I wanted to stay home and go to NIU and forget NMU forever and ever.

Well... now I'm not sure... again. I've been thinking about how hard it will be to move out of there. And how I may regret leaving. And how I am probably not going to be able to find that decent well paying job right away, which would leave me stuck at Meijer. Not to mention, stuck living in my house that I'm already getting sick of.

I realized that in the grand scheme of things, this decision is centered on 15 weeks of my life. FIFTEEN weeks. Nothing will be set in stone; if I don't like whichever program I choose, I can change!! I'm realizing more and more that it might be smart to stay at NMU for a semester, spend the extra $2000, and find out what the damn training and development program is all about. If I hate it, well, I got another semester with my friends and only lost 2 grand and 15 weeks of my life. Not to mention, I'm only a student-at-large at NIU right now... meaning, I can take classes, but I haven't yet been admitted to the program (I applied too late). What if I don't get in for Spring? I'll have wasted $3,400... and 15 weeks of my life. Which is the better choice?? I'm thinking more and more that I will go insane without one last semester with my friends (and staying at my house!), and I may actually end up ENJOYING the program that I was signed up for in the first place.

Makes sense to me, does it make sense to all of you? Please help me (again, lol)!

Hold on, Nikki- I may be coming back after all!! 
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Jun. 24th, 2008 @ 05:17 pm Life Update
Current Mood: busy

Okay, so here's another update to my previous post about life at the moment. I'm 99.9% sure that I will no longer be attending NMU. I am trying to form a life around my home here near my family. I am fairly certain that I don't want to go into training and development and I don't want to spend money that I don't have to figure that out for sure. 

Therefore, I'm applying to positions and schools all around here. I just applied for a 911 Dispatcher job in DeKalb county, which starts you out at 37,000 a year. I also applied to many pharmacy technician positions, since that has always interested me and they train you right there. Also, I've applied to Waubonsee Community College, Elgin Community College, and Northern Illinois University. I applied to the community colleges because I have always been interested in surgical technology, and since it's a 1 year program, why the hell not give it a try? I will be taking student-at-large credits this fall at NIU that will transfer to the counseling program once I get accepted (crosses fingers...) in the spring. 

So, in summary, if all goes my way, I will be working full-time, attending a master's program full-time, and attending a surgical technology program full-time. And I plan to hopefully get my own apartment within the next year out in DeKalb.

I guess I've never been one to take the easy path, have I?

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Jun. 10th, 2008 @ 06:11 pm Change?
Current Mood: contemplative
 Hey all, sorry I haven't been around lately. Just thought I'd give a little update on my life.

A while ago, I applied for a graduate assistantship with the psychology department. I was sure that I was going to get it, but since I haven't been 100% sure about wanting to go into the training and development program in the first place, I told myself, 'if you don't get the job, that's a sign that you need to go into something else.' Bullshit as that sounds, I didn't care because I knew I would get it.

Well, I didn't get it. So now, I am at a crossroads in my life. A major one. I am almost positive that I do not want to attend NMU for graduate school. The only reason I wanted to stay in the first place was because it was "easy"- meaning, I didn't have to move my stuff, I know all the professors, and I have my friends up there. It seemed like a no-brainer. Until I really thought about it. Will short-term happiness at my own apartment with my friends at NMU bring me to the long-term career and happiness that I've always been searching for? Do I REALLY want to go into training and development and probably be trying to climb the corporate ladder and probably be sitting at a desk for the rest of my life?

I'm pretty sure that answer is no. Therefore, I have applied to be a student-at-large at Northern Illinois University. It was too late to actually apply to any programs, but this way I'll be able to start taking classes in the fall. I will be going into the school counseling program. I think. 

Nothing is 100% set yet. I am still very mixed. Live a free life in my own apartment with my friends, or stay here and get free rent from my family and cheaper tuition and probably a steady full-time job? It all just seems so crazy and random; well, it is all crazy and random. But I think I'm ready for a change. I'm fairly certain that my NMU ship has sailed and I'm ready to try something out of the ordinary. Maybe even something extraordinary. 

Please feel free to comment with what you think, if you have any suggestions or anything like that or just wanna say hi. I could use a little support right now :) Hope you're all doing well.
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May. 7th, 2008 @ 05:30 pm (no subject)
 In case anyone is wondering, grades are now posted to Academic Transcripts on MyNMU. Here are my last semester grades:

Social Psychology: B- (lol how didn't I fail?!)
Human Geography: B- (lol didn't care...)
Child Psychology: B
Voice Lesson: A- (since I missed one concert out of the required 12)
Choral Society: A (HAHA)
Psychological Statistics: A (WOOOOO!)

Even though I got a few B-'s, I really don't care- cuz I GRADUMATATED!! :D

How'd everyone else do?
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Apr. 29th, 2008 @ 06:30 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: contemplative
 2 more exams to go and I'm done with my undergraduate career. All I have to say is WTF WHERE DID TIME GO?!

Not like I'm complaining or anything :P But seriously, does anyone else feel like we just got here?

Congratulations to everyone graduating (especially you, Heather, cuz I think you're the only one on my flist graduating LOL!). To everyone else, if you'll be in Marquette on Saturday, you should come to the ceremony at the Dome at 10:30 a.m. I am singing the National Anthem and Alma Mater :-) 

Yay!!
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Apr. 21st, 2008 @ 01:51 am Haha
Current Mood: contemplative

My Personality
Neuroticism
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Extraversion
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Openness to Experience
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Agreeableness
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Conscientiousness
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You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You have strong will-power and are able to overcome your reluctance to begin tasks. You are able to stay on track despite distractions.

Take a Personality Test now or view the full Personality Report.

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Apr. 17th, 2008 @ 01:34 am (no subject)
Current Mood: anxious
 My life is in a sudden disarray. I am not used to this, everything seems to be crashing around me and I'm worried. This is supposed to be a happy time. I'm graduating in 2 weeks. Why can't I be happy??

Sorry to be so mysterious. I will explain further when I can compose my thoughts into coherent sentences. 

Maybe it's the medication change and it will all be better soon.... dear God please let it be that... *sigh*
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Apr. 1st, 2008 @ 07:15 am Hmm...
Current Mood: cheerful

I suppose one last snow day was in order for my undergraduate career :P

HAPPY SNOW DAY, NMU! And no, it's not an April Fool's :) Sometimes I just LOVE the U.P.!!

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Mar. 24th, 2008 @ 11:03 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: content
I had such an incredible weekend! Somehow, Nick and I got the insane idea to surprise my family in Chicago and drive down there for Easter. We left Saturday and came back Sunday after dinner; 16 hours of driving for 20 hours of visiting, lol. It was SO worth it though. Just seeing my Mom and my sister's faces was worth it! 

In other news... I just can't believe there's only 5 weeks and finals week left until I have a bachelor's degree. Where has the time gone, seriously?
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Mar. 18th, 2008 @ 04:40 am I Can't Believe It!
Current Mood: relieved
 I finished my term paper for Social Psychology. I can't believe I am finally done. For those of you that know me well, you know that my anxiety disorder helps me be very organized with schoolwork and get as much of it done as early as possible. Prior to this paper, the shortest amount of time between me finishing a paper and the due date was about a month. For this paper, I was approaching 4 days.

For some of you, 4 days is still way too early to start a paper, lol. You all probably think I'm crazy for always getting things done WAY before they even should be thought about. But for some reason, I've always wanted to get things out of the way and never think about them again if I could. 

I started thinking about this term paper and what I was going to write for it about a month before Spring Break. My goal was to get it finished before I even went home for break. Well, for some reason or another, I couldn't even think of a freakin' topic. I don't feel as bad, since most of the class didn't even have their topics when I asked around TODAY, but it was still terrible for me. I even asked everyone when I was at home over break to help me find a topic. I came back and still couldn't think of anything sufficient.

I'm not sure if this means I'm just starting to become a slacker, or that I'm actually developing Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. I've been feeling like I could have OCD for some time, but I just don't feel like going back to a counselor again (they never help me and just piss me off by giving me information I already KNOW). The reason I believe that my paper problems may have been caused by OCD is simply due to the fact that I could not settle on a topic. No topic was good enough for me. Even the topic that I finally selected wasn't good enough, and I started re-writing the paper when I was about 3 1/2 pages in. Not to mention, the paper isn't even due until Friday at midnight, and I stayed up all night tonight to finish it since I was freaking out so much. My frame of mind has always been, "if I don't do it now, I probably won't be able to find time to do it later!" or, "I won't have time to properly review it!" I didn't submit the paper yet; I'm going to let it sit overnight and come back to it with fresh eyes tomorrow to make sure it's perfect. 

I've never been so obsessed and worried about a god-damn 10 page research paper. These are usually 2nd nature to me and write themselves within a few hours once I start. Gahhhh.

In other Stacey News since I never update anymore, I was going to quit Jimmy Johns today. I really, really didn't want to; I love working there and the people and environment are amazing, not to mention the tips I get from delivering. However, since I am in the Opera now, 2 out of my 3 shifts coincided with Opera rehearsals. So I made the decision, since I'd be quitting in May to go home for summer anyway, to give my 2 weeks today.

If I thought my boss was amazing before, it was definitely confirmed today. I told him my situation and about how much I didn't want to quit, and he told me to just keep the one shift that I could work and I could pick up other shifts that work in my schedule. He told me that he didn't want to lose me since I was such a good worker. I loved hearing this, but I reminded him that I would be leaving in summer anyway. He asked "well, aren't you coming back in the fall?" I said yeah.... and he said, "well, there ya go!" Apparently he wants me to work there again this fall and that's why he really didn't want me to quit. I'm so happy about that; now I can continue to help my mom with paying my bills and at least be, well, about 2% independent :P

God this is getting long and it's almost 5am. I'm off to bed (hopefully)!
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